Back to the day-to-day boringness of my life accept it will be less than day-to-day just as my life is just so damn busy. I am already knowing that tomorrow will be a do nothing day as I did so much more than I should have today. I have been productive, overly productive.
Things have been so great for me, everyday a little better. My physiotherapy is going great. I can now stand on a squishy mat for 60 seconds with my eyes closed. Closed with my eyes actually closed, this is huge for those who know how bad my balance is or was. I am doing the wobble board front to back, side to side, and diagonal. Amazing how far I am coming along. I am now able to step up forward onto a 4 inch platform when I started stepping up on a 2 inch. The 2 inch in the beginning just about stopped me in my tracks. I’m also able to side step on the 4 inch too. This just started on Friday, on Friday I was only able to do 2 side step on the 4 inch. This morning I did all five side steps on the 4 where on Friday I did the remaining 3 on the 2 inch. My progress amazes even me. I am my toughest critic. I start my day at physiotherapy on Monday’s and Friday’s. Every other day of the week I start my days on my elliptical for a minimum on 20 minutes. I’m down to 206 pounds. Starting at 230 in December. Life is so great to have this much energy. The book launch is on the 25th and I’m hoping to be below 200 by then. I am eating healthy and exercising, loosing it the correct way is helping my spirit too. It is great to see stretch marks as this means that I really am loosing weight. I see the number go down on the scale , but sometimes that doesn’t really seem real to me. It has been so long since I’ve had this much energy that I’m scared that it will just go away again. I still really suck at allowing myself to believe I may actually be getting better and staying that way day after day!
It was our first year anniversary of our new home yesterday. We couldn’t have celebrated any better than to do all the work we did. On the weekend Kyle and I planted a few flowers. I killed off a couple of trees I didn’t want. We moved two tractor buckets of rocks. I finished pruning my trees and Kyle loaded a few buckets of my twigs from around the yard too. We spent a perfect weekend outside beautifying our yard. The fact that I was outside for all of it is spectacular. The fact that I really was out there moving rocks is beyond spectacular (I’m not certain what that is, but I’ll tell you it’s huge.) I haven’t been able to throw rocks since before I was ill. I think it was on Friday when I was out pruning that I wasn’t able to stand up. There I was laying out on the lawn for a half hour waiting for my legs to strengthen enough for me to stand up. The best part of this is that no matter how much I over due that all I need to do is rest and I’m right back at it.
I was reading my sweet Denise’s blog this morning and how much our lives, well not our lives, but our emotions are exactly the same. I go to the place where she is at these days a lot over the years since my transplant. Okay this doesn’t count 2014 as I was back getting more attention than I knew what to do with, but since then and before 2014; the times when I’m healthy and not requiring as much attention. When I was always so ill there were always people (so many people) I mean when a specialist would come into to my room to see me there was normally 10 or 15 residents in the room with them. My health was such an anomaly that people would want to be witness to my uniqueness. When I spent the first 7 years of my disease like this loosing all those people over the next 3 years (less 2014) was quite a shock to the emotional system. I forgot that a bit until I read Denise’s blog this morning when she was writing about the fears that she is dealing with now that she is going through the same emotional upheaval. It took me quite a bit of work the first time after my transplant. I will say that this time after my 2014 craziness has been a lot easier. I have gotten right back into living my life without seeing a doctor once a week again fairly well. Now here’s to hoping that I can stay away for a whole lot longer this go around.
This is seeming like a bit of my life over the last week or so. Things are swinging along on a fairly regular pattern. I sure hope that all has been well for you. I am going to take off for now. I have the Lions club tonight. I’m going to bring up getting our float planning for the Canada parade tonight as July is coming along faster than I realize. I know it’s only April 13th, but it was only April fools day a few days ago or at least that is how it feels anyway. Things are just rolling away without me these days. Too much too fast!!
Love and hugs Fiona